Stop making excuses & just do it
This month is a weird month for me. I am mentally and physically preparing to go back to work in the restaurant industry in the next couple of weeks and I am feeling indifferent and anxious about it. For many reasons, but the main one being that working as a server or as a cook in restaurants no longer fulfills me.
I have always wanted to be an entrepreneur and to have a career that I am passionate about and able to help others. When my mom passed away in March 2019, that strong desire I have always had became so loud I was no longer able to silence it. I spent the majority of the year grieving her loss, and now almost exactly 1 year later with the Coronavirus leaving me jobless for the last few months, that feeling is almost stronger than ever. I crave a meaningful life, and also one that enables me to be financially stable.
I have always been someone who plans their entire life. Daily/weekly planner? Always filled. Yearly plans and goals? Of course. Envision of what my entire life will be? Since I was a 5 years old.
It’s weird because as of right now, I actually don’t know if I have a plan for my immediate future. I kind of want to spontaneously move when my lease is up at the end of July, I kind of want to completely change careers (still cooking and growing Wholistic Foodie of course), or I kind of want take a risk and finally start my own business of helping others and truly start living my purpose. I’m not really sure what big change it will be as of right now, but I know something is going to happen to me very soon. I can feel a shift of energy and I know that it indicates change.
For the month of June, I am going to try to embrace change, maybe take a leap of faith and remind myself of this monthly affirmation: to stop making excuses and just do it.